I'm alive! I'm Alive! w00t! w00t!
Life is churning. And my heartbeat is racing like a steroid-blooded horse. Everything is pulsating. I'm alive!
But I'm still insane. Socrates said that the "unexamined life is not worth living". Now, I'm saying , "The over-examined life leads to a distorted living."
Not that it's something negative. Fact is, I dapple in the eccentric. I say, fuck mainstream, live life, and like this one philosopher whose name I cannot recall, "Down with the herd!" My version? Fuck the heard! (oops, I did not mean to imply bestiality here, come to think of it, I think Ihave to reconsider this one. hehe)
The distortion eventually leads to something aesthetically pleasant to highlight the diversity of humanity. Of course, I still admit that we all are, inevitably, subject to systems of control. The simple escape is consciousness, that is, realizing that everything around us is some subliminal leash that bonds us.
Our only freedom is the mind. Look at history. How were the feelings of the revolution incited? It all started with ideas. For a long time, a huge percentage of our ancestors did not realize that they were being oppressed, until their minds were opened.
Seek diversity, to seek freedom.
THen we live.
Which brings me back to the current events : I am now enrolled (W00t! to that) and am quitting my job (more W00t to that!).
This is a tremendous turning point in my life. Which brings us back to the opening of my entry. I am now leaping like wild fire in a great ocean. Oh, the poetic beauty of it all! If only everyday there is a defining moment, a feeling of incitement that makes our heart beat like a steam train! If only something could drive us so that we can speak and write and think in exclamation points! Life would be so overflowing I might internally combust and blow up the entire Luzon area!
But of course, this is not without difficulty. My current struggle is bringing matters into focus. I'm having an extra hard time focusing on reading philopshy. By the Way, I'm working on Nietzche for my thesis right now. And I have to realign my mind and my passions. The tediousness of it!
Damn this job! I hate multi-tasking, Fuck multi-tasking! Do you know that it slowly deprives us of a very powerful mental faculty necessary for performing mind-breaking tasks? Yes, people, wE are losing Concentration, FOcus, Attention, Call it whatever you want! Imaging your mind as a camera. If it's not in FOCUS, it'll take shitty picture right? Can you take a Quality picture while jumping up and down? HEll, even pros need Tripods, right?! Multi-tasking entails a compromise of tasks performed, distributing mental power to differing activities!
ANd sleep deprivation. Sure, sleep deprivation is a heroic task. "Wow, I stayed awake for more than 30 hours! Ladies and GEnts, meet Hercules!" Fool. Do you know that sleep deprivation zaps brain cells that can NEVER be brought back? And performing tasks while in a state of sleep deprivation will eventually lead to more or less not so excellent results. Whatever myth started it all, Fuck it, We all need sleep.
I'm sorry. How does this relate to my current affairs? I can't Fkn do things right because I'm always sleepy! I drink coffee, sure, my mind is hyped, but it feels so much like a coral than a sponge!!
Well, I have to get back to my books now. I have to Focus. I hope prayer can save me from myself.
my one new keyword is. FOCUS. FOCUS.Because it defines my existence : Our acts define our being. MY current act is Reading. ANd our calling is the perfection of our being. THerefore, I must perfect my Reading activity! (YAY! I'm Starting to be LOGICAL, HALLELUJAH![strangely, sadly, this reminds me more of BAMBOO{the rock band}, than Church] )
hmm. I think I got that from Heidegger...
But I'm still insane. Socrates said that the "unexamined life is not worth living". Now, I'm saying , "The over-examined life leads to a distorted living."
Not that it's something negative. Fact is, I dapple in the eccentric. I say, fuck mainstream, live life, and like this one philosopher whose name I cannot recall, "Down with the herd!" My version? Fuck the heard! (oops, I did not mean to imply bestiality here, come to think of it, I think Ihave to reconsider this one. hehe)
The distortion eventually leads to something aesthetically pleasant to highlight the diversity of humanity. Of course, I still admit that we all are, inevitably, subject to systems of control. The simple escape is consciousness, that is, realizing that everything around us is some subliminal leash that bonds us.
Our only freedom is the mind. Look at history. How were the feelings of the revolution incited? It all started with ideas. For a long time, a huge percentage of our ancestors did not realize that they were being oppressed, until their minds were opened.
Seek diversity, to seek freedom.
THen we live.
Which brings me back to the current events : I am now enrolled (W00t! to that) and am quitting my job (more W00t to that!).
This is a tremendous turning point in my life. Which brings us back to the opening of my entry. I am now leaping like wild fire in a great ocean. Oh, the poetic beauty of it all! If only everyday there is a defining moment, a feeling of incitement that makes our heart beat like a steam train! If only something could drive us so that we can speak and write and think in exclamation points! Life would be so overflowing I might internally combust and blow up the entire Luzon area!
But of course, this is not without difficulty. My current struggle is bringing matters into focus. I'm having an extra hard time focusing on reading philopshy. By the Way, I'm working on Nietzche for my thesis right now. And I have to realign my mind and my passions. The tediousness of it!
Damn this job! I hate multi-tasking, Fuck multi-tasking! Do you know that it slowly deprives us of a very powerful mental faculty necessary for performing mind-breaking tasks? Yes, people, wE are losing Concentration, FOcus, Attention, Call it whatever you want! Imaging your mind as a camera. If it's not in FOCUS, it'll take shitty picture right? Can you take a Quality picture while jumping up and down? HEll, even pros need Tripods, right?! Multi-tasking entails a compromise of tasks performed, distributing mental power to differing activities!
ANd sleep deprivation. Sure, sleep deprivation is a heroic task. "Wow, I stayed awake for more than 30 hours! Ladies and GEnts, meet Hercules!" Fool. Do you know that sleep deprivation zaps brain cells that can NEVER be brought back? And performing tasks while in a state of sleep deprivation will eventually lead to more or less not so excellent results. Whatever myth started it all, Fuck it, We all need sleep.
I'm sorry. How does this relate to my current affairs? I can't Fkn do things right because I'm always sleepy! I drink coffee, sure, my mind is hyped, but it feels so much like a coral than a sponge!!
Well, I have to get back to my books now. I have to Focus. I hope prayer can save me from myself.
my one new keyword is. FOCUS. FOCUS.Because it defines my existence : Our acts define our being. MY current act is Reading. ANd our calling is the perfection of our being. THerefore, I must perfect my Reading activity! (YAY! I'm Starting to be LOGICAL, HALLELUJAH![strangely, sadly, this reminds me more of BAMBOO{the rock band}, than Church] )
hmm. I think I got that from Heidegger...
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